Why are we Strangers when...

Reply to me, call me on my cell

Why are we strangers when

We are on the same LEVEL

Why ignore me then?

Everytime I try to put myself under lock,

You come online, I feel the urge to talk

I guess I need you, buddy

And everytime I decide to get angry

I see your face, it flashes in front of me

Your smile is able to melt me, buddy

I make believe that I dislike you totally

It's the only way, how of you, I steer clear

What have I done, buddy

You seem to move on easy

Everytime I try to put myself under lock,

You come online, I feel the urge to talk

I guess I need you, buddy

And everytime I decide to get angry

I see your face, it flashes in front of me

Your smile is able to melt me, buddy

I may have made you feel bad

Please forgive me

My weakness made you sad

And that explains my sorry

At night I pray

That soon your face will fade away

And I will no longer feel the way

I am feeling for you today

Everytime I try to put myself under lock,

You come online, I feel the urge to talk

I guess I need you, buddy

And everytime I decide to get angry

I see your face, it flashes in front of me

Your smile is able to melt me, buddy…

Just one second

Just one second
You don't wanna recollect
That image of accident
In your minds, you can't resurrect.

Just one flash
And you lost your friend
Just one crash
And he met a dead end

Just one second
His body lies there, all blue
Just one second
You dunno what to do

Just one second
And he is crushed there and then
His lung pops out
And his soul leaves for heaven

Just one second
His body lies, smeared with the gore
Just one second
And he is no more...

Once a friend...

Now I know who you are
Now I know what you pretend to be
You think you can wear that veil of friendship
But you don't realise that everything, I can clearly see...

You think you are too smart
You think you are the master of this "pretentious" art
You think people around you are fools
You think you can use everyone like tools

Ha, think again dude
This world has got brains to brood
Driven by overconfidence, you will fall
And No one would come to rescue you in this Hall...

People you call your friends are bigger hypocrites than you
They are using you and when their work is done, away they will throw you
I can see everything so damn clearly, that I could have helped you sail through.
But now, you have lost a friend in me too.

So, goodbye friend
Or ex-buddy should I say
May God give you wisdom
To help you find your way...

Amen!

One day

Every vow you break
Every story you fabricate
Every smile you fake
Every conspiracy you contemplate
I would surely get to know about it...

Every other day
Every game you play
Every trap you lay
Every time you betray
I would surely get to know about it...

Oh, cant you see
How hard it is to bear this for me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every time you bitch
Every day you ditch
Every row you pitch
Every tale you stitch
I would surely get to know about it...

Every false charges you levy
Every rumors you spread about me
Every time you have a secretive bee
Where you show your glee
I would surely get to know about it...

Oh, cant you see
How hard it is to bear this for me
How my poor heart aches
With every pinching comment you stake

Since I have seen your real self, I been lost without a trace
I dream at night and see your ostentatious face
I look around but its your false deeds I cant replace
I feel so cold and I can barely see through this haze

But I know I surely would get to know all about it...ONE DAY!!!

Promise!

I am sitting on the grass
I am waiting in the night
I thought that they would pass
By my side...

There's nothing but the mud
No footsteps on the sand
I switched on my cell
But can't hear any bell...

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody even bother to give me a call?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to find some respite
Won't you help me forget the past and help me start anew?
I dunno who you are but I promise I would be there for you...

I am trying to overcome my fear
I am searching for a figure
Is anyone here
At me, who won't jeer...

Coz nothing's going right
My life is a mess
Exams are approaching
And i am under huge stress...

Doesn't anyone know that I am alone?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn chilly night
I can't see any light
Won't you help me show the life's true hue??
I dunno who you are but I promise I would be there for you...
PROMISE!!!

Guilty

I never want to play the games they play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I just want a handful but true friends around me
In times of need, who just don't flee...

I never want to act as worldly-wise
I never want to put up appearances, where behind stays all the LIES
I have a self-identity
To be accepted by everyone, I don't wanna lose the REAL me...

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
All I wanna do is express what I feel

If it's wrong to do what's right
But it's accepted when you back-bite
And since I don't wear such a veil

Then i am GUILTY

Dude I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me here
After all these 18 years
That i just wasted away
I'm guilty now all I have to say...

Meaning to my Life

I have been living in that doubt ever since.
I have been wanting to understand the words they mince.
I have been in constant dilema for so long.
Trapped in a self-struggle, I just can't seem to move on.

Not been able to figure out how to act.
On trivial issues, I often over-react.
Dunno how right it is to follow Tit-For-Tat.
Dunno why everyone is a diplomat.

All I wanna do is find a
Meaning to my life
I can't rest until i find a
Meaning to my life

I have been trying to care for them straight from the heart
But they back-bite when it's time for them to play their parts
Behind my back, they call me names
I have been reduced to a Joker of their card games

I have been waiting for a person to accept me that way I am
Who doesn't consider me just another SPAM
I have been longing for a deeper relationship
Not just another fair-weather friendship

All I wanna do is find a
Meaning to my life
I can't rest until i find a
Meaning to my life
I am afraid to open my heart again
Coz i don't want to encounter that deep pain.

There are moments when I dunno where to go
Should try to bring about a change or just blindly follow
Deep inside, I feel so hollow
What to do, I simply don't know.

Is there anyone who feels the way I feel
Torn between the things so unreal
I derive no inspiration
Everything seems just a negotiation.

All I wanna do is find a
Meaning to my life
I can't rest until i find a
Meaning to my life
I am afraid to open my heart again
Coz i don't want to encounter that deep pain.
I know it's not a justifiable act
But I can't see no way out of this trap...

Bitch!

You took my trust away, too fast
Left no chance to say look back
And now I know the truth,
It makes it easier
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away

You threw it all away
So blind
You always bitched on me,
All through your life.
Now I know the tears,
Won’t lead to loneliness
Maybe when time goes by,
I’ll understand

Let’s pretend, that I’ve moved on
And I tell myself,
That life goes on, without you.
Open my eyes, Look deep inside.
I run away

Prelude

U grow, u learn
U dont, u yearn.

Dunno how it all started.
From diary to word document to blog
A journey to being a big wheel from cog

Neva knew wat i wanted.
Neva gave it a thot
Just randomness, pure randomness I play on
Merrily came and gone.